let's try explaining this AGAIN.

i was just thinking.. well, this thought has come up many times in my head.. i looked at the videos of me doing therapy at the courage center to see APPROXIMATELY when i attended that unhelpful ass facility. so far- the videos are dated 2013 and 2014.. SO THAT'S AT LEAST TWO YEARS. I'M NOT WASTING MY TIME AND GOING BACK IN MY PROGRESS JUST TO REMAIN IN THE SAME DAMN PLACE. they failed me THREE times when i went to their behind-the-wheel driving lessons because i told them from DAY ONE that one of my goals was to get my DRIVER'S LICENSE again. (so i DID pay outta pocket for behind-the-wheel lessons and the guy claimed i was safe to drive- i just needed to purchase a vehicle to take the behind-the-wheel test with to get my license with again.. amy can even ask brian, even though i'm not sure he'll even mention when i TOLD HIM THEY SAID I WAS SAFE TO DRIVE- I JUST NEEDED TO PURCHASE A VEHICLE TO TAKE THE LICENSE TEST WITH- i'm sure brian had underestimated me too when he agreed to pay for these lessons and he assumed he could just have me decide that driving was too hard if and when i failed but the guy even said i was absolutely SAFE driving). the only reason why i'm even ambulatory is NOT because of courage kenny either.. my grandma went out and found TRAM HOLLOWAY during the time i was wasting my time at courage kenny and i was complaining to her that i didn't see any progress in my walking because ALL they'd let me do is the fuckin nu-step (which is a machine where the person sits on the machine and pushes their feet forward and backward while pulling and pushing bars on each side.. YOU DON'T GET PRACTICE WALKING FROM THAT SHIT). IGNORANT ASSES ASSUME THAT'S WHAT HELPED ME AND THEY FIGURE SINCE I HAVE A BRAIN INJURY- I'M TOO FUCKIN STUPID TO KNOW BETTER AND KEEP ME ON THAT SHIT WASTING MY DAMN LIFE JUST SO THEY CAN KEEP ME FROM ACCOMPLISHING MY GOALS- BECAUSE WHO THE HELL CARES ABOUT STACY?! SHE HAS A BRAIN INJURY, SO THAT MEANS SHE'S STUPID!! RIGHT AMANDA?! SHE'S JUST LIKE HER MOM! SHE'LL BE HAPPY NOT WORKING EVEN THOUGH SHE HAS THE CAPABILITY TO DO MORE WITH HER LIFE THAN JUST SIT AROUND AND GET PAID FOR IT THROUGH SOCIAL SECURITY. SHE'S STUPID! SHE CAN JUST TALK TO HER DOGS IF SHE'S EVER LONELY! I AM NOT MY MOM FOR THE MILLIONTH TIME. I DON'T PLAN ON TALKING TO YOU OR MY MOM AGAIN IF YOU CAN'T FUCKIN REALIZE THAT. SAME FOR MY FAT SISTER. ATTEMPT TO BLOCK YOUR PHONE NUMBERS SO I ANSWER THE PHONE BUT THAT AIN'T GONNA KEEP ME FROM HANGING UP ON YOUR FAT ASS. I HAVE MORE POTENTIAL AND THE CAPABILITY TO ACTUALLY WORK. if any of you asses REALLY gave a damn about me- you'd recognize all the fuckin years i ALREADY attended the courage center and would HELP me PROGRESS at MY GOALS. it doesn't even pay to go back to the courage center because there's no guaranteeing anyone will actually recognize ALL the therapy i'm doing so i'll JUST STAY IN THE SAME PLACE my whole damn life but oh- IT DOESN'T FUCKIN MATTER! I'M TOO STUPID TO REALIZE THEY'RE NOT ACTUALLY HELPING ME BECAUSE I'M TOO STUPID TO FIGURE THAT OUT BECAUSE I DO HAVE A TRAUMATIC BRAIN INJURY! you unhelpful pricks just need to mind your own damn business because you're NOT helping SHIT like family members are supposed to help their other family members. if i walk out onto a road or end it some other way- you can guarantee that i'm gonna thank amanda for everything she DIDN'T do to help me live my life so i was TRULY happy (probably in a letter) along with my selfish mom because i know she's the main reason why amanda feels like she doesn't have to help me or she just has to help me at her convenience.